Here

Here you are
never knew when this day would come
you're standing by me
and you asked a question and I knew my answer
and you're here
You accepted every part of me, past present and you sharing my future.
What more could I ask for
when you're right here

Wow been soooooooooo long since I was on here, so much has changed... Found a great boyfriend who became my fiance and I now have a wedding to plan.... Been an amazing ride... Will post poetry about it when I get the chance to write it... Hehe great times

So here i am

Here i am
im here blessed beyond belief
beyond my understanding that someone like my could be blessed
beyond my comprehension
but thats because im not blessed cause who i am
God blesses from His grace
the limitless grace i'll never fully understand
maybe thats the most i ever will understand it, knowing i cant
but nevertheless im blessed.
so here i am praying that God, You'll give me the strength commitment and faith to live for You
to give You my life fully
to thank You in the only way i know how for Your grace, mercy and Your son.

This is just something i randomly found online

Found this the other day... Think it's really interesting. Good to think about

"Would I be called a Christian?

Would i be called a christian if everybody knew
my secret thoughts and feelings and everything i do?
oh, would they see the likeness of Christ in me each day?
oh, would they hear Him speaking in every word i say?

Would i be called a christian if everybody could know
that i am found in places where Jesus would not go?
oh, would they hear His echo in every song i sing...
in eating, drinking, dressing would they see Christ in me?

Would i be called christian if judged by what i read
by all my recreation and every thought and deed?
would i be counted Christ-like as i now work and pray
unselfish, kind, forgiving to others every day?" ~ anon

Blessings

How many blessings do i have?
how many that i have not counted?
Each second i breathe
every sunrise and sunset i live through
every friend and family member
every broken heart
and healed cut
every smile as people pass by
every small thing and every large
guess it's time to give praise
and that praise can only go to the Father of Lights....
sometimes we may forget His abundant blessings
but with a smile He reminds us each and every day :)

Be grateful

Be grateful God is the perfect loving Father!
Because what you're doing would destroy almost any human heart,
almost any respect for you!
Don't forget even with God there are consequences..
Just be very grateful cause all of a sudden i am..
im no better than you but i'll acknowledge my faults and work at them
im trying to stop my wrongs, i regret them..
Be grateful God is forgiving cause you're pushing people away from Him!

My Shepherd

My shepherd i hear Your call
i hear You calling me back to the flock
i start on my way back but get caught on something or fall into a hole..
Only then do i cry back
only then do i plead with You to find me
and in spite of my selfish ways
my lack of understanding and my lack of care
You come and find me
gently untangle and lift me up to carry me home
You clean me up and place me back into the flock
where gently patiently caringly You watch over us all

How often

How often have we searched
how often have we looked
how often do we try to find that lost bit of us
how often is it we search everywhere it can't be found
how often do we turn to wrong things to make it right
how often do we turn away from the light
how often is it we play with God
how often is it we dont see the truth
how often do we just lose sight

Surviving

So looking back at the years gone by,
how on earth did we survive.
Heartache and pain have been abundant over the last few years,
but so has joy.
Watching children grow, teachs us so much of what we really need to know.
Be honest and loyal,
respectful and true
be kind and caring in everything you do.
Be faithful, be soft
laugh a lot and be yourself.
Have unfaltering faith
and true love.
cling tight to family and friends.
Try be your best, try bring others smiles.
The biggest thing a child knows that somehow we forget,
is that in helping others and bringing them joy,
you find joy and peace above all freedom.

To all the girls who have been hurt

Look back at the past
smile at your regrets
let the truth be known,
you're stronger than him.

Look back at the time you spent
know you did your best,
remember what was good
remember he's human.

Look back at it all
if you remember just this,
remember hating him might be easy,
but forgiving him will set you free.

Look back and know,
that you forgive not because you're weak
but because you're strong
and he can't break you.

How far gone?

So well will you stop playing this game?
When will you remember who you playing with?
The Creator of all, the one and only God,
He created the earth by His words
and yet you find this game fun.
You don't think about the future
when He comes again..
O foolish children where then will you hide
Where then will you try to wash your inquity again
what then will you use to try scrub that mark away
When will you find time with Him more fufilling than time with some chick or some guy
when will you realise He's waiting for you
THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE is waiting for you
not because you are great but cause He loves you
when will you wake up to how much of yourself you're giving away
when will you see how much you've lost
you gambling with your life
but hey if it isn't dangerous it isn't fun, isn't that what you believe.
well when you wake up take a good look around
cause maybe when you see how far gone you are,
maybe just maybe you won't be too lost to find your way back

Living

We spend our lives walking down the same old streets
doing the same old stuff
trying to find some purpose some reason to live
then somewhere some discover God
He gives them more than a reason
He gives them a passion
a love for living the straight and narrow path..
Suddenly lives are changed
suddenly even when life is at its hardest they can smile
simply because God is awesome

Seeing Hearts

If we could see each others' hearts would we be shocked?
What intentions would we see?
Which of our friends would we run from
which would we hold and comfort
which would we look at and smile knowing they're ok?
Would we turn away from strangers like we so often do?
Would we change our ways and realise they are human to?
If we could see the hearts of those around us
would we change our own selfish ways?
Would we realise how much they're worth
or would we come to the same everyday conclusion?
So i ask you if you could see my heart
what would i mean to you?

Wish You Knew

I wish you knew what you're missing
wish you could understand His love
wish you could see your debt
see your wrongs
wish you knew how loved you are
wish you could see how the brokeness is fixable
wish you knew the love He gives
wish it could sink in
wish you would choose to be His.

Wish

I wish you knew what you're missing
wish you could understand His love
wish you could see your debt
see your wrongs
wish you knew how loved you are
wish you could see how the brokeness is fixable
wish you knew the love He gives
wish it could sink in
wish you would choose to be His.

What is it?

So what is it about you that makes me feel like this
what is it that gives you the ability to do this
why when we talk can you make me like a princess or just a bit of dirt
why is it you still have that power
why can you do this to me
when things are long over
why does it still hurt
why cant i stop it
why i cant i break my fall for you
what the hell is it that you have
what is it that other guys cant make me feel
what is it that pushs me towards you even when you ripping my heart out

Rocking To The Right Tune

So its near that time of year again for our youth. HOLIDAY CLUB!! and although everyone is super amped i cant help but wonder if everyone is rocking to the right tune.. wonder who's rocking to the gf or bf's tune... who's rocking to the gotta put the right image out there... and quite frankly who's rocking to Jesus' tune... Thing is no matter what tune they rocking to we all got together come together to form one song.. hopefully one that'll sing God's praise... so let's hope we can all start rocking to the right tunes to form a powerful song in 2009!!!

Those who this was written for will understand

Now these things remain faith hope and love and the greatest of these is love.
but when you say i love you
does it mean anything
does it hold true.
you dont intentionally hurt those you love.
you dont chase them away like a scavaging animal
you dont crush them like an annoying mosquito
you dont keep them like a donkey after a carrot on a string.
you are honest with them.
they mean the world to you.
you try treat them like Jesus would have
afterall God is love.
and no you wont always get it spot on
but you try treat them
with the respect and care they deserve.

This Night

Im sitting here in a room that seems empty but its not
im sitting here with God
trying to make sense of it all
trying to see what i've done
trying to figure out why innocent mature and nice is wrong
why guys dont want that
trying to figure out if i've made any difference this year
trying to work through it all
realising how tiny i am afterall
starting to see the big picture again
starting to wonder where He's gonna lead me
and wondering who He's gonna set on the journey with me

To anyone who finds this relevant please realise the truth

what if one day someone does to you
what u do to those who love you
what if one day someone lies to you
leads you on
flirts with you without any feeling
wants to kiss you with no caring
what if someone breaks your heart
like you break hearts
what if one day someone tells you they want to be with you
what if after that they avoid you
hope it'll all just go away
what if someone doesnt take responsibilty
for their actions relating to you.
what if you were the one on the receiving end
wouldnt you just want the truth even if it hurts
wouldnt u want to know before your whole heart is given
wouldnt you just want the honesty.
give them the honesty they deserve.
relationships of any kind involve trust and communication
dont break both
just tell them the honest truth and do it now
before anymore damage is done.

How Many

How many will you repeat the same words to?
How many will be best?
How many will you always love?
How many will always have your heart?
How many will you tell you're the only one for me?
How many will you be madly in love with?
How many are the perfect partner?
How many will hear the tired old clichés?
How many will there be who rock your world and then you break up?
How many next ones will there be?
So tell me how many.

Loss

Losing someone you love is hard enough
losing them to death is worse than that.
But sometimes we stop
sometimes we realise
they aren't dead
they are more alive than we are.
and as hard as it may be to accept
sometimes we need to see that
it's not over,
it's just beginning for them.
one day we to will get that chance
a second start
a new life.
it hurts to lose someone close to you
but always remember
that they aren't dead
they just at the start of eternity
where one day we will join
a happy group of people raised to life,
we will be able to be amongst one another again.

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Another life taken
another one gone
taken young
taken fast.
so hear my call
and listen close
dont neglect those alive
those around you
those who touch your life.
Don't choose to have to live with regret of something left unsaid.
Now is the time and now is the place.
Let those around you
know what they mean
know what they are to you.
Day by day teenagers, adults, elders,
they lose their friends,
their family,
those they love.
Don't pretend you don't care,
don't break hearts and leave emotions in shreds.
Tell them how much they mean,
how they touched your life
because you might not see it happening
or want to believe it could
but you never know who is next....
so please please don't leave things unsaid.

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