Loss

Losing someone you love is hard enough
losing them to death is worse than that.
But sometimes we stop
sometimes we realise
they aren't dead
they are more alive than we are.
and as hard as it may be to accept
sometimes we need to see that
it's not over,
it's just beginning for them.
one day we to will get that chance
a second start
a new life.
it hurts to lose someone close to you
but always remember
that they aren't dead
they just at the start of eternity
where one day we will join
a happy group of people raised to life,
we will be able to be amongst one another again.

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Another life taken
another one gone
taken young
taken fast.
so hear my call
and listen close
dont neglect those alive
those around you
those who touch your life.
Don't choose to have to live with regret of something left unsaid.
Now is the time and now is the place.
Let those around you
know what they mean
know what they are to you.
Day by day teenagers, adults, elders,
they lose their friends,
their family,
those they love.
Don't pretend you don't care,
don't break hearts and leave emotions in shreds.
Tell them how much they mean,
how they touched your life
because you might not see it happening
or want to believe it could
but you never know who is next....
so please please don't leave things unsaid.

a few edits....

The World Needs a Wakeup

Dear World

Here's a few lines i think you should consider:

• -When did the words "i love you" start meaning nothing
• -When did 13 year olds dressing and acting like 20 year olds become acceptable
• -When did we leave behind morals and values
• -When did money surpass loyalty
• -When did trust become over rated
• -When did we start teaching children that its ok to lash out cause you hurt
• -When did we start telling children crying is for babies
• -When did we learn to break down others self worth
• -When did we throw out our beliefs for what our friends think
• -When did we stop caring about each other
• -When did we stop thinking of the person next to us as human
• -When did we shut our emotions down just in case we get hurt
• -When did we decide that its not ok to hurt
• -When did we stop loving ourselves
• -When did we start caring more about others opinions of us than the truth
• -When did learn that revenge is right
• -When did we start these silly games with people's hearts
• -When did we decide a life partner is like a handbag easily changable

and mostly

• -When did we start assuming God is wrong

And Now...

Who would've thought it would hurt like this
hurt less than expected
who could've imagined that right now i wouldn't care
that my heart could know
you lost me
i didn't lose you.
I'll love again
and one day
one day you might regret your choice
we'll always be friends
even after this.
You'll always have a special place in my heart
but that place isn't my whole heart.
i love you like i love all my friends.
You're no different to them now.
You're just like the rest
a good friend.

Hello this is your heart speaking

Will you please listen
im breaking in two
im hating him
but im loving him to.
im begging you to stop
to give up the joy and with it the pain.
im begging you not to do this to me again,
Im begging you to leave him behind,
to live on hope
and trust that you'll find one who'll make it right,
who'll be sincere in all he says and does in relation to you
and who i can be given over to
knowing i won't come back
shattered and torn
but that i'll be sheltered and valued,
so will you please listen
this is your heart saying
i love him more than i can possibly say,
but sometimes a thousand pieces can't keep hope alive
and a million pieces struggle to love anyway.

Our Debt

So here i am once again Father
and i call on Your name.
Father i stand here known as one of Your own.
i stand here a christian by name
by Your Son
and by faith.
i stand here and i look to You
for only You can rescue me.
By my own actions i deserve a firey pit
by Your grace i am given Heaven.
By my own sin i deserve hell, an everlasting death
by Your grace i am given paradise.
By my thoughts, my unclean heart, my very flesh
i deserve nothing You give so freely
but by Your innocent Son's blood
You give it anyway.
and perhaps this makes no sense to our mere human minds
but somewhere in the midst of the choas of trying to figure it out
we find hope and faith
but mostly we find Your love and grace.
So maybe its time we stopped trying to figure this out
acknowledged our inequities
repented of our sins, the bad we've done and the good we left undone,
and maybe its time we just accepted Your Son
without trying to figure out how we can free ourselves of that debt
cause maybe in this life
there is only one debt we could never repay

Her

When you said its her you going to,
it hurt but i knew it was ok.
you love her and im fine.
im happy for you.
you deserve to be happy,
if she does that then i want you two together.
and you chosing her didnt hurt that much
but i know it hurt you cause it hurt me
but im fine with it.
you worry about me hurting when im made aware how in love you are
and it worried me to
but now i realise nothing can hurt more than being aware how sad you are from a fight.
if its that you're in love
then i know you're happy.
its this sadness and hurt that kills me
cause i dont want to see you hurt,
i dont want to see you cry,
i dont want to see you with pain,
but what can i do
you chose her

Life is too short

I have no promise i can give beyond my current breath.
no promise i can make cause i dont know if i have a next breath.
as i sit here i dont know if i'll be alive this time tomorrow
i dont know how long is in God's plan for me to live
So in this time i have i want to make right
i want to die having touched lives and hearts
i want to die knowing i've made a difference
if i die before im old
cry no tears for the time i didnt get
cry no tears for what i didnt do
but celebrate the time i had
celebrate the things i did
when i die keep it simple
just follow your heart and do it from love
when i die dont mourn too long
keep living on the straight and narrow path
i dont know how long i have
but i do know im grateful for every breath
for every friend
for every bit of love
for every family member
for every memory good or bad
so to everyone i know
life is too short
to not make it known
to hide it from those in your life
to everyone i know
i love you
regardless of any fight or anything said
i will love you all till the end

Everyone Knows

So where do i stand?
i know you'd take her back.
but i appreciate how honest you are about it.
you woke me up this morning
but i wont complain
a sweet "good morning"
and a "no denying you're still asleep"
and somehow that made me feel special beyond a doubt.
but knowing how close you are to her
that leaves me scared
i trust you but you've been honest so i know the dangers here
i know you'll always be my friend
but i know how i feel
and i know whats been said
so im standing here
and im going with what happens

Everyone Knows

So where do i stand?
i know you'd take her back.
but i appreciate how honest you are about it.
you woke me up this morning
but i wont complain
a sweet "good morning"
and a "no denying you're still asleep"
and somehow that made me feel special beyond a doubt.
but knowing how close you are to her
that leaves me scared
i trust you but you've been honest so i know the dangers here
i know you'll always be my friend
but i know how i feel
and i know whats been said
so im standing here
and im going with what happens

Where, What, How

Where will you turn when your world crumbles?
when it falls apart?
tears at the seams?
What will you do when evryone turns away?
rejects you?
claims not to know your name?
How will you cope when it all gets too much?
when the stress is high?
when pressure reaches boiling point?
So where will you turn?
What will you do?
How will you cope?
i have hope;
love;
faith.
i know where i will turn;
i know what i will do;
and i know how i will cope.
i will turn to God,
i will have faith in Him,
and i will cope by trusting in Him.

Tiny Bird

Today a little bird i saw
and the funniest thing it did,
before it took flight
it stretched its tiny legs;
checked its baby tail;
and stood on its tiny wing and stretched it out.
strangely i realised we're just like that bird,
before we can run or fly or soar,
somehow we got to get stretched out.
so sometimes when life gets you down,
think of that tiny bird,
as he stretched out before he flew
so sometimes God stretches you.

Yes or No

so is it yes or is it no,
will you start a new chapter in your life;
or is the old you good enough for God.
will you realise the error in your ways;
or will you blindly follow satan off that cliff.
will you give your life to get it back;
or will you keep your life to lose it.
will you run after your father like a carefree child;
or will you sit with blade in your hand like a destroyed teen.
will you chose a place of beauty;
or a lake of fire.
will you sit with Him;
or run till you realise there is no running anymore.
will you give your life to God?
simply yes or no;
there is no in between.

Never Again

Never again will i walk alone;
never again will i sit alone;
never again will i fear death;
for grace and mercy have found me.
Your son gave His life,
so that i might live.
He gave His life,
so that with Him i would overcome death.
He is my Saviour,
the living one,
the one who satan could not make fall.
He alone deserves that place called Heaven;
but instead He has opened its gates
to all who truly know Him, not only His name.
For they will cast out demons,
but know him not,
but i know that when i live,
i live for Him,
and that life will never end.

If

If you could count the stars;
you'd understand His love.
If you could swim to the bottom of the ocean;
you'd comprehend His forgiveness.
If you could stand on the sun;
you'd deserve His grace and mercy.
If you could love with His love;
you'd deserve His compassion.
If you could live as He lived;
you could earn your salvation.
But none of this can you do;
simply because you are human,
but He still loves you,
still forgives you,
still offers you grace and mercy,
still stands over you compassionate,
still saves you.
what can you offer;
simply your life,
a living sacrifice.

To all my friends

So what am i meant to do
how can i help you
i cant decide for you
only try guide your way
i know what answer should be
i know the commitment involved
i know the loss that it brings
but i know the joy and beauty and life it gives
i know what He can make of you
He made it of me
i know how He can grow you
He grew me
But mostly i know how He can save You
like He saved me
so with all with heart and all my love
i pray You'll do as i've done
make the commitment and truly live for Him

Whats Going On Here

well actually right now all thats happened is i've added various poems i've already written so they not exactly in the right order oops :) o well.. hope they mean something to someone or you at least enjoy them...

Dear God (from a young christian)

Your face is everywhere
You are all
i see You
i see You everyday
but i am not worthy of that Lord
i am not worthy of Your touch
but still You touch me
i hurt You everyday
i hurt You, my Master and my Lord
i do that, i do and i, i cant explain
how i feel because i know You still love me
i know this and i hurt because i have betrayed You
i have run from You
i have hurt You
and i know You forgive
i have not followed You
i have pushed You aside and i
i want to cry
i know You and yet
i still do the same everyday
and everyday i fall short
and everyday You pick me up
and give that one hug which
solves all
that one hug that gives me eternal life
and everyday i know this
yet as human i exist the same everyday

God sent

This describes everything good in my world.
This describes my life; my being.
This describes the blood in my veins
and the heart in my chest.
This describes my friends and family.
This describes each and every part of nature,
be it animal or tree etc.
This describes all the love in my heart
and all the feelings in my soul.
This describes what God wants us to see,
His world.

To Every Girl,You Know How This Feels

its a feeling every girl knows
a pounding heart
blood red cheeks
shaky hands
and nervous knees.
Its a heart thing
an emotional thing
something out of our control.
all he did was glance her way
but that was enough
that started it all
the blushing cheeks wont ever fade
her loving heart was given away

Escape From Here

This isn't my place
This isn't my world
I don't come from here
This isn't where i belong
This is a rest stop
on the way to eternity
When i leave i will hit a crossroads
which direction to take
i will have decided during my stay
When i go on
i want to see His glory
i want to chose the right path
When i come to those crossroads
i want to know the way
i dont want to be lost at that point
i know where the other road leads
i want to follow the right road
i want to see You face to face
i want to know You're proud of my stop
i want to hear You say welcome home
when my stop is over i want to go home

Maybe

Maybe one day you'll turn around
look back on your life and realise what you lost
i hope you find someone better than me
but i hope you see who am i
and who you lost that day when you walked away
Maybe you'll see how my heart broke for you
how it loved you
and mostly how it tried to protect you.
Maybe you'll see how you rejected that
how you tore it in two
and mended it so many times over
but how you still left it in pieces as you walked out
as you made it clear
and as you walked up to her and offered her your hand

What Will it be

If i let you in
will you break my heart?
if you say you'll always be there
will there come a time you'll leave?
if i trust you
will i end up destroyed
and on my floor in tears
not knowing how i could've been so stupid as to trust again?
if you promise to stay by my side
will i end up standing alone
fighting solo
not knowing where my defender is?
If i let you in
will i regret it
or will it be best time of my life
where i can know you'll be there
know i can trust
and know i'll be safe in your arms?

To Every Girl: watch what you do to guys

I've seen him after you left
seen him broken and hurt
i've seen the pain
tried to heal the broken heart
i've seen the tears
i've dealt with the issues
you walked away
you destroyed him inside
and then you jumped straight to the next one
i wish you'd look back
i wish you'd see his face
the heart i cant mend
and the tears i cant stop
just cause you stopped loving him
didn't mean he stopped loving you

Strange

Why are guys such asses?
Why do girls treat the decent ones so bad?
Why can't they see us as human?
Why can't we treat them as more than a label brand?
Enough is enough
if you're that guy who's decent and sweet
then stop hiding behind shyness and previous defeat..
if you're one of those that have hurt them
or turned the good ones bad
think carefully cause you just turned someones future inside out..
you destroyed a good heart
and left another broken cause he'll never be the same

What Happens

What happens when you have nowhere to turn
no one you know you can trust with everything
when somehow for some reason you just believe its all faked
what happen when satan starts messing with your mind
trying to convince you that you'll never be worth it
trying to make you feel it's not worth it
when satan starts playing around in your life
using friends against you
making you feel alone
what happens when you start doubting the trust you give
the honesty of those around you
when suddenly you not sure your friends really care
when somehow everything seems to fall apart...
turn to the hills, from where does your help come?
My help comes from the Lord..
to Him i turn, in Him i trust..
somehow although the rest doesn't go away
i can make it through, satan is defeated
and i will partake in the victory..
i will live for God's approval not for man's
so if it's all fake i can still survive
i wont be alone ever
and when things fall apart
i'll still be in God's hand

Now

Is there anything that can take this away
anything to numb this pain
is there anyone who can hold me tight
anyone to see me through the darkness of this night
is there a hope for an end to this
hope for a happy ending
a peaceful place
a calm loving embrace
but somehow in the midst of this
i sense my fear
know its all too real
the sense of danger
the fear of hurt.
the fear that the embrace will quickly fade
the fear of knowledge of true and fake
the fear that of that fruit i'll take...
the fear that somewhere deep inside
is something that no man will ever like...
the fear of people far or close
the fear of losing out in this race

Dead Waiting to Die

I look around
i see the dead
the dead waiting to die
they have no life
no hope in their midst
they trying so hard to find themselves
they looking in the places they lost themselves
amongst the drugs, the alcohol, the everything but righteous
and nowhere can they find what they lost
they hiding from their only hope
their only saviour
the only one who can show the way back to who they are
the dead have a chance at life
they just got to look up
turn to the righteous things
turn back and find themselves
all they got to do is find their way
to the foot of the cross

Addicted

i have one addiction
one thing i need to live
one thing that im nothing without
one thing that keeps me alive.
The thing that warns of the end
that offers me a chance past the end
that offers me my life.
The only thing that can see my through these times
that can hold me tight
can keep me warm
that can replace any other addiction
that can heal my heart.
the only addiction i choose
the only addiction i want..
the only addiction you can never break
my addiction to God

A letter to satan from a Christian

if u could see who i've turned out to be
despite ur best attempts to destroy me
im alive inside
u fell from heaven and u fell from grace
u took a place beneath the earth
a place of fire
more than u deserve
and with u
u trying to drag us along
well guess what u not gonna win
try as u might
God isn't letting go
u lost this battle about 2000 years ago
He gave His life
to make me whole
He gave His life for one and all
He gave His life and sealed ur fate
He gave His life to bring back the dead
so one day He'll come again
if i was u i'd start running
cause u never gonna change ur fate

Smile

just a smile
a smile and im lost to the world
a smile from You
and i'd leave the world
they have nothing to keep me
when You smile
when You smile i know i've done right
i know i've made You proud
when You smile from up above
the world stops
in that instant i know i'm loved
in that instant i know i'm right
in that instant i know You're God

Again

Here i stand
i know i've messed up bad
im standing here
asking once again
please forgive this sin
this time im gonna make it right
im not gonna mess this up again
too many times i've done that
never again
not over this
nothing compares to what you give
so this time its only You and me
nothing and noone else
just You

The Dark

Sitting here wishing i was elsewhere
somewhere alone with You
in the dark
a single torch light
a bible in my hand
finding my way
a way through this life
seeking the truth more and more
honestly pressing into you
none of this feels real
its all too busy
too without You
without Your touch
without Your life..
Feels too much like im missing You
i want You
thats why im calling out to You now
fill even this place
let Your glory fall

Tides

As the moon controls the tides
so Your hand is over the phases of my life
like high and low tides
there are times of joy and sorrow
but as the moon watches over the sea
so You watch over me
Your words to me i'll never forget
Im like your moon
you are My sea
the tides will change at My will

When i Stand before You

One day when i stand before You Lord
i want to be able to say that
i did what You asked
did what You required
went where and when i was sent
used the abilities and gifts You gave me
accepted Your son and Your grace.
i want to be able to stand before You
knowing i gave life my best
gave You my best
did my best for others.
One day when my physical body passes away
i want to run to You
i want to run to my Father
i want to sit at Your feet and ask
did i do You proud
did i live Your way
and all i want to hear is Yes My child.