Hello this is your heart speaking

Will you please listen
im breaking in two
im hating him
but im loving him to.
im begging you to stop
to give up the joy and with it the pain.
im begging you not to do this to me again,
Im begging you to leave him behind,
to live on hope
and trust that you'll find one who'll make it right,
who'll be sincere in all he says and does in relation to you
and who i can be given over to
knowing i won't come back
shattered and torn
but that i'll be sheltered and valued,
so will you please listen
this is your heart saying
i love him more than i can possibly say,
but sometimes a thousand pieces can't keep hope alive
and a million pieces struggle to love anyway.